Failure

I have never felt like more of a failure in my life and I'm not sure I can fix it. I'm. It sure I can break myself of this funk. I'm not sure that I will ever feel "well" again.  It's hard being so broken and misunderstood. It makes me feel so inferior and worthless. I'm not sure that there's a fix for that. I'm not sure that medication is the answer either. 

I know I shouldn't question the lords judgement on why it is that I ended up so sick and broken. Or why is it that I am put through such trials and tribulations?  What is it that I did that makes me such a horrible person?  I surely don't know because if I did, I would do everything I could to fix it.